My favorite song…. Hmmm I have so many. It really depends on my mood. But I can give you the 5 songs I have listening to everyday.
What songs are you listening to these days?
Soo lets talk real quick. It was brought to my attention that SZA is supposedly “side chick music.” Now if you really listen to SZA you would know what she is all about. But most people refer to her based off of her song “The Weekend” Where she says
“You say you got a girl
How you want me?
How you want me when you got a girl”
“My man is my man is your man
Heard that’s her man
Tuesday and Wednesday, Thursday and Friday
I just keep him satisfied through the weekend”
And yeah on the outside looking in it sound exactly like that. But take it from this stand point. What if you were dealing with a man who is supposedly in love with two or more woman? each woman knows about each other and are okay with what is going on with him. Does that make her a side chick? who is really the main chick? But really is it just her saying shit he is for everybody!?
SZA isn’t this “Hey everybody lets just play these nigga how the play us!” She is about empowerment. Her songs are about the things she has and is going through. I bring this topic up because of her new music video Supermodel. The video begin with her doing what all woman do looking in the mirror pick at ourselves, with her “man” in the back laugh at her. These kids come and make her feel beautiful. As she is walking the road in a forest she is straight WORKING and SLAYING!!!! But while walking she see’s her man laughing at her again.
“I could be your supermodel
If you believe
If you see it in me
See it in me
See it in me
I don’t see myself
Why I can’t stay alone just by myself
Wish I was comfortable just with myself
But I need you”
That is the words of a woman that constantly fight with her self esteem something we all have trouble with. Its the same with the song Drew Barrymore
“I get so lonely, I forget what I’m worth
We get so lonely, we pretend that this works
I’m so ashamed of myself think I need therapy-y-y-y
I’m sorry I’m not more attractive
I’m sorry I’m not more ladylike
I’m sorry I don’t shave my legs at night
I’m sorry I’m not your baby mama
I’m sorry you got karma comin’ to you
Collect and soak in it right”
Here’s something from Broken Clocks
“All I got is these broken clocks
I ain’t got no time
Just burning daylight
Still up still up
Its still love its
Still love still love still loving still love
Nothing but love for you
Nothing but love
Nothing but love”
In the end of all of this SZA is a real one. She sings about being in these crazy stages of our lives in these crazy ass 20’s. Where you would think we would be past self esteem issues, bad relationships, and toxic love. But it life and we gotta keep pushing through. But next time you listen to supposedly “side chick music” listen to the story and not just the chicks who live their lives off of being a side chick. And just saying Shirley Murdock – As We Lay is side chick music lol but its still my jam! Tell me what you think about SZA -CTRL!
I was going through my Instagram and seen a lot of songs I used to listen to. And Lord what did I see Alicia Keys – Brand New Me, and at first I could remember how it went. So I looked up the video and I fall in love with the song all over again. That song literally represent me in all ways this year.
“It’s been a while
I’m not who I was before
You look surprised
Your words don’t burn me anymore
Been meanin’ to tell ya
But I guess it’s clear to see
Don’t be mad
It’s just a brand new kinda me
Can’t be bad
I found a brand new kinda free”
It took a long, long road to get here
It took a brave, brave girl to try
It took one too many excuses, one too many lies
Don’t be surprised, don’t be surprised
“Careful with your ego
He’s the one that we should blame
Had to grab my heart back
God knows something had to change
I thought that you’d be happy
I found the one thing I need
Why you mad?
It’s just a brand new kinda me”
Hey, if you were a friend
You’d wanna get to know me again
If you were worth the while
You’d be happy to see me smile
I’m not expecting sorry
I’m too busy finding myself
I got this
I found me, I found me, yeah
I don’t need your opinion
I’m not waiting for your “OK”
I’ll never be perfect,
But at least now I’m brave
I know my heart is open
I can finally breathe
Don’t be mad
It’s just a brand new kinda free
That ain’t bad
I found a brand new kinda me
Don’t be mad
It’s a brand new time for me
I know I always say that we have to find ourselves and to love ourselves. But when someone drains the person you once knew. It can be hard finding yourself over again. It can be trying, tiresome, and sad. Because who were you before that person walked in? And age can have a lot to do with it. You grow in age but your mind stays in the age that it all began. But in the end, finding that brand new you is even more liberating that find the old you. I always tell people change is inevitable but growth is optional.
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